BACKWARDS

everything seems a little backwards

I think I am going insane

but that's been going on a little while now

I wish to be normal sometimes

but thank the goddess that I have 

the strength to be different

my head is almost spinning

too many thoughts running

through my fragile mind

I wonder how I got to be the way I am

I can't even begin to see who

lead me down this path

this winding highway I call life

I imagine it could be possible

I found it all on my own

but then why I am I called a 'poser '

by those who know me best

it's all backwards

I have always had this attitude

hidden deep inside

I am slowly releasing

my freakish ways

as to avoid confusion among my family

but there is so much still hidden

deep deep down inside me

I wish that they would all finally get it