Hiding

I am good at hiding

so know one really knows

some know it's there

but they really don't know what

I don't want the demon to escape

because it spreads

like a flesh-eating disease

effecting everyone I know upon release

I don't want to do that

so I allow it to eat away at me

I keep a smiling face

a mask that makes everyone happy

except me

but I don't really matter

that's what they tell me anyway

I care too much to see everyone

fall apart the way some people

are letting me do

so I will keep it all inside

I just hope no one lets me get to

the point of cracking

because then you'll all hear it

everyone of you

I don't even really trust my own diary

to hear my deepest secrets

no one can know ever

nothing is secure enough to

tell the horrors.